went for a run around the blocks, had a quick shower and am now trying to put my thoughts into tangible words. I realised how much i missed running. just running with my ipod blasting songs into my ears. Even though there were many muddy puddles from the afternoon rain, i continued running. Running allows endorphin to course in the vessels and clears your mind. everything makes perfect sense after that. I should have done it long ago. But the rain and the unattractive scenery aren't helping. I see traffic everywhere since my home is just beside one of the busiest expressway. And people in this neighbourhood litter quite alot i must admit.
I realised how much i'm missing one of my best-est mates. We were always at our "random-est" around each other. I was allowed to put my guards down and enjoy the moment. He dared to point out my mistakes and we made fun of each other. Somehow i was so obsessed with putting the blame on others and wading in my own unhappiness to remember how much our friendship means to us. And i even suggested abandoning this friendship a few weeks back. I must be insane. i'm sorry.